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First Time Seeing VannDa

(khmermix.com)
by Sophal5 months ago|0 comments

Seila, a Khmer-American teen, visits Cambodia and attends her first VannDa concert. Unsure of herself at first, she finds pride, belonging, and connection through music, language, and culture.

VannDa concert experience

It all started with a group chat. 'Yo, Seila, you down to see VannDa tonight?'

Seila stared at the message. She was only two weeks into her Cambodia trip, still getting used to the heat, traffic, and fast Khmer her cousins spoke.

'Who's VannDa?' she typed. Seconds later, five excited voice notes landed in the chatβ€”all in Khmer.

One cousin sent a link. The beat dropped hard. Her chest vibrated with the bass. Khmer words. English lines. It felt powerful.

That night, they took tuk tuks to the concert. Lights flashed on Seila's sunglasses as the city sped by. Her cousins joked in Khmer. She laughed tooβ€”even if she didn't understand everything.

When they arrived, the crowd was huge. Teens wore streetwear, dyed hair, and shirts that said 'BATBANG'. Khmer was everywhere. Seila felt like an outsider.

A girl bumped into her and said, 'αžŸαž»αŸ†αž‘αŸ„αžŸαž’αžΌαž“!' Seila froze. She didn't know how to respond.

Her cousin whispered, 'Say αž’αžΈαž”αžΆαŸŽ – it means like, don't worry.' Seila tried. 'Ey ba...' Her cousin laughed and high-fived her.

Suddenly the lights dimmed. The crowd screamed. VannDa stepped on stageβ€”shirtless, gold chain, glowing hair. The beat dropped.

He didn't speak. He lifted the mic. Boom. Boom. Boom. Then came the wordsβ€”rapid Khmer, bursts of English.The crowd knew every line.

Seila didn't know all the lyrics, but she knew the hook: 'Time to Rise!' She shouted it with the others.

Her voice cracked. She didn't care. She was in itβ€”with them. With Cambodia. With herself.

After the show, they sat on the sidewalk eating grilled corn. 'You rapped in Khmer!' her cousin said.

Seila laughed. 'I've been practicing.' They clinked soda cans. For the first time, she didn't feel like a visitor.

The next morning, Seila opened her journal and wrote: 'I rapped in Khmer. I wasn't perfect. But I was there. That means something.'

αžœαžΆαž…αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž•αŸ’αžŠαžΎαž˜αž–αžΈαž€αžΆαžšαž‡αž‡αŸ‚αž€αž€αŸ’αž“αž»αž„αž€αŸ’αžšαž»αž˜αŸ” 'សីទអ αž’αžΌαž“αž…αž„αŸ‹αž‘αŸ…αž˜αžΎαž›αžœαžŽαŸ’αžŽαžŠαžΆαž™αž”αŸ‹αž“αŸαŸ‡αž‘αŸ?'

αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαž˜αžΎαž›αžŸαžΆαžšαž“αŸ„αŸ‡αŸ” αž“αžΆαž„αž‘αžΎαž”αž˜αž€αž€αž˜αŸ’αž–αž»αž‡αžΆαž”αžΆαž“αž–αžΈαžšαžŸαž”αŸ’αžαžΆαž αŸ αž αžΎαž™αž“αŸ…αžαŸ‚αžŸαŸ’αžšαž”αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαž“αžΉαž„αž’αžΆαž€αžΆαžŸαž’αžΆαžαž»αž€αŸ’αžαŸ… αž…αžšαžΆαž…αžšαžŽαŸ αž“αž·αž„αž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαž›αžΏαž“αŸ—αžŠαŸ‚αž›αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αŸ”

'αžœαžŽαŸ’αžŽαžŠαžΆ αž‡αžΆαž“αžšαžŽαžΆ?' αž“αžΆαž„αžœαžΆαž™αžŸαžΆαžšαŸ” αž”αž“αŸ’αž‘αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž˜αž€αžŸαžΆαžšαžŸαŸ†αž‘αŸαž„αž”αŸ’αžšαžΆαŸ†αž˜αž€αžŠαž›αŸ‹ αž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαž‘αžΆαŸ†αž„αž’αžŸαŸ‹αŸ”

αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž•αŸ’αž‰αžΎαžαŸ†αžŽαž—αŸ’αž‡αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž”αž‘αž—αŸ’αž›αŸαž„αž˜αž€αŸ” αžαž“αŸ’αžαŸ’αžšαžΈαžœαžΆαž™αžαŸ’αž›αžΆαŸ†αž„αŸ” αž‘αŸ’αžšαžΌαž„αž“αžΆαž„αžšαŸ†αž‰αŸαžšαž–αžΈαžŸαž˜αŸ’αž›αŸαž„αŸ” αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαŸ” αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αž’αž„αŸ‹αž‚αŸ’αž›αŸαžŸαŸ” αžœαžΆαž αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŠαžΌαž…αž‡αžΆαž˜αžΆαž“αž’αžΆαžšαž˜αŸ’αž˜αžŽαŸαžαŸ’αž›αžΆαŸ†αž„αŸ”

αž™αž”αŸ‹αž“αŸ„αŸ‡ αž–αž½αž€αž‚αŸαž‡αž·αŸ‡αžαž»αž€αžαž»αž€αž‘αŸ…αž€αžΆαž“αŸ‹αž€αž“αŸ’αž›αŸ‚αž„αž€αž»αž„αžŸαžΊαžαŸ” αž—αŸ’αž›αžΎαž„αž†αŸ’αž›αž»αŸ‡αž›αžΎαžœαŸ‰αŸ‚αž“αžαžΆαžŸαŸ€αž›αžΆ αžαžŽαŸˆαž‘αžΈαž€αŸ’αžšαž»αž„αž›αžΏαž“αŸ” αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αž›αŸαž„αž‡αžΆαž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαŸ” αž“αžΆαž„αž€αŸαžŸαžΎαž…αž•αž„ αž‘αŸ„αŸ‡αž˜αž·αž“αž™αž›αŸ‹αž’αžŸαŸ‹αž€αŸαžŠαŸ„αž™αŸ”

αž–αŸαž›αž–αž½αž€αž‚αŸαžŠαž›αŸ‹ αž‘αžΈαž’αŸ’αž›αžΆαž”αŸ’αžšαž˜αžΌαž›αž•αŸ’αžαž»αŸ†αž–αŸ„αžšαž–αŸαž‰αž‘αŸ…αžŠαŸ„αž™αž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαŸ” αž€αŸ’αž˜αŸαž„αž‡αŸ†αž‘αž„αŸ‹αž–αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŸαž˜αŸ’αž›αŸ€αž€αž”αŸ†αž–αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŸαŸ’αž‘αŸ’αžšαžΈαž αžŸαž€αŸ‹αž–αžŽαŸŒαž…αž˜αŸ’αž›αŸ‚αž€ αž“αž·αž„αž’αžΆαžœαžŸαžšαžŸαŸαžšαžαžΆ 'αž”αžΆαžαŸ‹αžŠαŸ†αž”αž„'αŸ” αž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαž˜αžΎαž›αž‘αŸ…αž‚αŸ’αžšαž”αŸ‹αž‘αžΈαž€αž“αŸ’αž›αŸ‚αž„αŸ” αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαž αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŠαžΌαž…αž‡αžΆαž˜αžΆαž“αž’αžΆαžšαž˜αŸ’αž˜αžŽαŸαž˜αž·αž“αžŸαŸ’αžαž·αžαž€αŸ’αž“αž»αž„αž€αŸ’αžšαž»αž˜αŸ”

αž€αŸ’αž˜αŸαž„αžŸαŸ’αžšαžΈαž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž”αŸ‰αŸ‡αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆ αž αžΎαž™αž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αžαžΆ 'αžŸαž»αŸ†αž‘αŸ„αžŸαž’αžΌαž“!' αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαž”αŸ’αžšαž‘αžΆαž€αŸ‹αŸ” αž“αžΆαž„αž˜αž·αž“αžŠαžΉαž„αžαžΆαžαŸ’αžšαžΌαžœαž†αŸ’αž›αžΎαž™αž™αŸ‰αžΆαž„αžŠαžΌαž…αž˜αŸ’αžŠαŸαž…αž‘αŸαŸ”

αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αžαžΆ 'αž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αžαžΆ αž’αžΈαž”αžΆαŸŽ – αž˜αžΆαž“αž“αŸαž™αžαžΆ αž˜αž·αž“αž’αžΈαž‘αŸαŸ”' αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαžŸαžΆαž€αž›αŸ’αž”αž„αŸ” 'αž’αžΈαž”αžΆαŸŽ...' αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαžŸαžΎαž…αž αžΎαž™αžœαžΆαž™αžŠαŸƒαŸ”

αž—αŸ’αž›αžΊαž—αŸ’αž›αžΆαž˜αŸ—αž—αŸ’αž›αžΎαž„αž„αž„αžΉαžαŸ” αž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαžŸαŸ’αžšαŸ‚αž€αŸ” αžœαžŽαŸ’αžŽαžŠαžΆαž‘αžΎαž„αž†αžΆαž€β€”αž‚αŸ’αž˜αžΆαž“αž’αžΆαžœ αžαŸ’αžŸαŸ‚αž€αŸ’αžšαžœαžΆαžαŸ‹αž˜αžΆαžŸ αžŸαž€αŸ‹αž—αŸ’αž›αžΊαŸ” αžαž“αŸ’αžαŸ’αžšαžΈαž…αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž•αŸ’αžŠαžΎαž˜αŸ”

αž‚αžΆαžαŸ‹αž˜αž·αž“αž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αž’αŸ’αžœαžΈαž‘αŸαŸ” αž‚αžΆαžαŸ‹αž›αžΎαž€αž˜αŸ‰αŸƒαž€αŸ’αžšαžΌαŸ” αž”αžΌαž˜αŸ” αž”αžΌαž˜αŸ” αž”αžΌαž˜αŸ” αž”αž“αŸ’αž‘αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž˜αž€αž˜αžΆαž“αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™β€”αž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαž›αžΏαž“αŸ— αž–αŸ’αžšαž˜αž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž’αž„αŸ‹αž‚αŸ’αž›αŸαžŸαŸ” αž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαž‘αžΆαŸ†αž„αž’αžŸαŸ‹αžŸαŸ’αž‚αžΆαž›αŸ‹αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αž‘αžΆαŸ†αž„αž’αžŸαŸ‹αŸ”

αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαž˜αž·αž“αžŸαŸ’αž‚αžΆαž›αŸ‹αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αž‘αžΆαŸ†αž„αž’αžŸαŸ‹αž‘αŸ αž”αŸ‰αž»αž“αŸ’αžαŸ‚αž‚αžΆαžαŸ‹αžŸαŸ’αž‚αžΆαž›αŸ‹αž…αŸ†αžŽαž„αž‡αžΎαž„αŸ– 'Time to Rise!' αž“αžΆαž„αžŸαŸ’αžšαŸ‚αž€αž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžŠαž‘αŸƒαŸ”

αžŸαž˜αŸ’αž›αŸαž„αž“αžΆαž„αžαžΌαž…αŸ” αžαŸ‚αž‚αžΆαžαŸ‹αž˜αž·αž“αžαŸ’αžœαž›αŸ‹αž‘αŸαŸ” αž“αžΆαž„αž“αŸ…αž‘αžΈαž“αŸ„αŸ‡β€”αž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž–αž½αž€αž‚αŸαŸ” αž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž€αž˜αŸ’αž–αž»αž‡αžΆαŸ” αž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αžαŸ’αž›αž½αž“αž―αž„αŸ”

αž”αž“αŸ’αž‘αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž–αžΈαž€αžΆαžšαžŸαž˜αŸ’αžαŸ‚αž„ αž–αž½αž€αž‚αŸαž’αž„αŸ’αž‚αž»αž™αž›αžΎαžŠαžΎαž˜αžαŸ’αž“αž›αŸ‹αž‰αž»αŸ†αžΆαžŸαžŽαŸ’αžŠαŸ‚αž€αžŠαž»αžαŸ” 'αž’αžΌαž“αžšαŸ‰αŸ‚αž”αž‡αžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžš!' αž‡αžΈαžαžΆαž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αŸ”

αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαžŸαžΎαž…αŸ” 'αž’αžΌαž“αž αžΆαžαŸ‹αž˜αž€αž αžΎαž™αŸ”' αž–αž½αž€αž‚αŸαžŠαž€αž€αŸ†αž”αŸ‰αž»αž„αž‘αžΉαž€αž€αŸ’αžšαžΌαž…αŸ” αž‡αžΆαž›αžΎαž€αžŠαŸ†αž”αžΌαž„ αž“αžΆαž„αž˜αž·αž“αž˜αžΆαž“αž’αžΆαžšαž˜αŸ’αž˜αžŽαŸαžαžΆαž‡αžΆαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž”αžšαž‘αŸαžŸαž‘αŸαŸ”

αž–αŸ’αžšαžΉαž€αž”αž“αŸ’αž‘αžΆαž”αŸ‹ αžŸαžΈαž‘αžΆαž”αžΎαž€αžŸαŸ€αžœαž—αŸ…αž€αŸ†αžŽαžαŸ‹αž αŸαžαž» αž αžΎαž™αžŸαžšαžŸαŸαžšαžαžΆαŸ– 'αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžšαŸ‰αŸ‚αž”αž‡αžΆαž—αžΆαžŸαžΆαžαŸ’αž˜αŸ‚αžšαŸ” αž˜αž·αž“αž›αŸ’αž’αž₯αžαžαŸ’αž…αŸ„αŸ‡αž‘αŸαŸ” αž”αŸ‰αž»αž“αŸ’αžαŸ‚αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž“αŸ…αž‘αžΈαž“αŸ„αŸ‡αŸ” αžœαžΆαž˜αžΆαž“αž“αŸαž™αŸ”'

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